Right now I feel at war with Neptune. How could he do this to me? A poor sensitive Splenic Projector with 6 open centers including the Solar Plexus and Throat. 

Someone who was taught to trust in his spontaneous nature and deeply calibrated intuition. “This is your truth,” Human Design said.

I imagine Neptune putting me on his back while he climbs the ladder to the high-dive, tiptoeing to the edge of the platform, readying us to plunge to the depths of emotional crisis in Gate 36. 

He must be thinking, what a pathetic Pisces, he's been avoiding emotion his whole life, I guess we go ahead with the plan. And on March 7th 2022 he screams, happy birthday! And we jump.

After 5 years of living my Human Design Experiment I can confidently say that for most people I don’t recommend it.

When I found Human Design I had nothing to lose, my mental and physical health were at an all time low. My romantic relationship and business had simultaneously fallen apart. I was broke, very alone and just hit the rock at the bottom. I was done with the way I had been living my life.

When I first saw my chart, found out I was a Projector and given this radically different approach to success and recognition I thought, sign me up. If it doesn’t work I’ll still be broke and alone… big deal. I had nothing to lose, no responsibility, no family, no career, no money. Just me.

My Ego was like Darth Vader, born innocent with beautifully powerful capabilities designed to serve others. Betrayed too often, its allegiance shifted to the dark side, created the Death Star and sought to destroy the Universe. And by Universe I’m referring to my self-esteem, immune system, gut health, and literal heart. (The Ego Center has the most biological correspondences of any Center)

I’m no expert in planetary transits but when the draft opinion to possibly overturn Roe v. Wade was leaked my mind immediately matched it to the current celestial weather and my mind was blown. The relationship to these planetary bodies and what plays out here on earth is truly remarkable and the more I dive into Human Design and astrology the more I see that we are living in a program. The first planet we’ll take a look at is Pluto.

When young adulthood started I began to wonder if I had come to the wrong planet. How could life feel this off? When I wasn’t mentally beating myself up I was relaxing into the dark fantasy of leaving this world for good. Thoughts of how I would end it were the only stimulation capable of turning off the negative self talk. I was stressed to the point of autoimmunity, depression, and deep, deep bitterness. This was my normal, I hated myself, or so I thought.